I’ve done a lot of questioning in my life. The more I question the more questions arise in my mind. I don’t get answers, I get more questions!! Talking specifically in the context of spirituality, I am yet to find answers that satisfy me. Sometimes I think it is better to just believe and show faith without questioning. It makes life much easier. And that’s what I do! I believe, I pray, I find happiness in my faith but it’s not as if the mind doesn’t question. The eternal problem that a thinking mind faces!
One of the biggest question of all – ‘Does God really exist?’
I’d like to think that he does. I’d like to think that he created the beautiful world that we live in, that he determined our standing in this world, he makes us do things and shapes our destiny we exist and he ultimately judges us for our deeds. If you are Christian you believe he judges you and determines your ‘after world’ and if you are Hindu, you believe he judges you and determines your next birth. So where is the conflict? Let’s dissect all the above line by line …
He created the beautiful world that we live in …
The world that we live in is an absolute MASTERPIECE. With the stunning flora, fauna, seasons, beauty of each season, the unique creatures that inhabit this beautiful world, surely only a very special power could have created this masterpiece. There is no concrete evidence but the faith does lend credibility to this belief.
He determined our standing in this world …
Now this is one of the most compelling arguments (in my mind) of the existence of God! Still not tangible evidence but evidence nonetheless. How else could you possibly justify the inequality that exists in the world? If you believe in the concept of karma and a superior being determining your stature based on past deeds, it begins to make sense or provide some answers – to me at least! There is a system of justice and ‘good’ ultimately prevails and God is the power that metes out justice!
He makes us do things and shapes our destiny …
He creates us; he nurtures us and makes us do what we do – both good and bad. If he wants to create a perfect and an ideal world where everyone is essentially good, why would he make anyone do anything bad? Shouldn’t we all be objects of peace and harmony? Why should any negative forces exist in the world? This whole concept of Pandora’s box does not make sense to me. So he makes a person commit theft, murder, rape and other crimes and then judges them for it? Why? This is the start of the argument against the existence of God. It just does not make sense.
He judges us for our deeds ….
I’ve already argued the fact that if our destiny is shaped by him and we are objects of his divine power, he shouldn’t make us do anything unacceptable to him. Now once that is done, while he eventually judges us at our entry into another world, how does he do it? I have serious questions about this process. What is good for one is not good for another. The definition of ‘bad’ can be very subjective- right? Let’s take an example of a murderer. A person who kills is a sinner but if he kills for honour of his country, we celebrate him as a martyr. How does this work in God’s court? An American soldier kills Iraqi soldiers and vice versa. How are they judged?
Let’s take another example. Adultery is generally considered wrong … it is wrong to cheat on your partner because you will hurt them. So if you decide to be honest, confess and ask for a separation and pursue another relationship, does that make it better? Aren’t you still hurting the person either way? So which form of hurt is more acceptable to God?
So, would my God be really judging every single act of mine? All I’ll say is if I was God and I had to judge, I’d go MAD. This just does not seem logical at all and strengthens the argument for atheism.
Alright, what about the other end of the spectrum – There is no God!
Is coincidence the only explanation for the disparity at birth? There are geniuses like Ravi Kiran and Ilayaraja. One two year old identifies musical intricacies when another two year old (from a similar family background) can barely talk two coherent sentences! There has to be a logical explanation for this disparity that goes beyond coincidence! ‘The learning from a past life has manifested itself early on in this life’ makes a lot more sense than the theory of coincidence. The theory of coincidence seems too far fetched for me!
So, what happens when we die? An atheist would say – we cease to exist. So, people regardless of the kind of life they have lived face the same end – they ‘cease to exist’. This seems just too cruel and unfair. At this point I have to say, the concept of God sitting on the judge’s chair to me seems a lot more acceptable than the theory that we just disappear off the face of earth!!
Why won’t someone magically provide me with the answers I seek? Why won’t someone who really knows their stuff come and convince me either way? I am really quite open to both sides of the argument just so long as it is convincing. Until then I continue to live in faith, a theory that seems to provide more answers to me